
(9/26/25) Title: (LORE DUMP) College and Feeling Lost
(THIS IS BASICALLY A VENT POST SO YES I'LL BE COMPLAINING A LOT)
Okay so lore dump: my first year of college was probably the worst year of my life. I basically talked to nobody on a consistent basis, and I would spend most of my time just doing work, taking walks, or going to the gym. I felt like a compelte outcast because everyone around me seemed to have groups they hung out with. Everyone on my floor seemed super different than me, which didn't help with my already poor social skills. Around November I also got into a situationship with my ex, which helped ease the feeling of isolation, but that ended within the span of a month and they got over me a couple months after. After a while everything just felt like a chore because what's the point of achieving anything if I have no one in my life to even talk about it to. My grades slipped in the last quarter and I ended up needing to retake a class over the summer.
I can honestly totally understand if anyone thinks the experiences I described are non-issues because as I grow up I learn about all the horrific things people in other countries and even in my own go through, but it all doesn't change the fact that I felt like shit and there wasn't much I could do about it.
This may seem really petty (it is), but it hurt seeing how many friends my ex had during their first year of college, while I had nobody but them for the short time we talked. I'm not saying I'm not happy for them, because I absolutely am. I just mean I wish I could've had people to confide in. They also have a new boyfriend now, which like, is good for them too, I GUESS... I'm kind of getting off topic at this point wow.
Well that's all for now, I have a class in like 15 minutes. Hope whoever is reading this has a good day :)